aku tak boleh nak tidur...

after chatting with paez and wayie..

after saying a sleep-morning-goodbye..

after turning off the laptop..

after ready for a dreaming moment..

I end up with
"aku tak boleh nak tidur"..

keep thinking about the hell-heart-touching words

thought of sms-ing paez and wayie
but they might be sleep already..

so, after the azan subuh,
I decide to wrote this in Blog..

my mind keep thinking about the emotion I felt right now..

the emotion that hurts me so much..

the emotion that makes me cry..

the emotion that makes my right hand's cramp..

the emotion that makes me awake..

the emotion that proves I am over-sensitive..

well, after all..

hina sangat ke aku ni??

teruk sangat ke aku ni??

buruk sangat ke perangai aku??

kasar sangat ke aku ni??

munyit sangat ke aku ni??

kurang ajar sangat ke aku ni??

fucking bitch sangat ke aku ni??

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murah sangat ke persahabatan aku ni??

I think..

I been cursed..

I been tested..

I screwed up everything..

I am sick..

I am tired..

I am scared..

maybe, I'm just to serious about this..

I am done..

"enough is enough"